Something like a dream....

I met Scott off of a dating website that I joined so I could get better acquainted with what I needed in a relationship. 

I wasn't expecting him to like me. I went into a lot of relationships this way. Because of my self esteem and the way past relationships were handled I became very self conscious almost to the point I was doubting the relationship before I even met the person. 

When I realized I would totally be fine being alone... When I actually liked my space and the things I had with out thinking I needed someone there to check on me, or to make me feel nice. That's when Scott came. 

When Scott learned things about me, I felt like I could instantly see satisfaction in his gaze. I never had to ask whether he liked me or not. I know this may sound meaningless to you but my family lines come from that of linebackers and Italian cooks. I am a big girl. I am still trying to accept myself. 

I am about to leave my 20's behind in May of next year. I keep thinking about everything that has led up to this point. It is a story I wish I could share with the entire world and I am only still just beginning. 

I think when someone can be their true self in front of you, that is a luxury. 

While the day grows closer I wonder to myself what I might say to Scott on the day we tie the knot. Wanting to stay away from the "I promise to..." declaration and trying to think of all the things that really make us who we both are together. 

So many moments that lead us to here....